Losses

This past few days have been a bit of a downer and while I was glad to get the mammogram out of the way and know that is one I don't have to think about for another year, I then had to take DH on Friday for a CT scan and follow-up with the vascular surgeon. Going into Dallas is always a stressful drive, but I pray the angels guard us all around and we arrive safe to our destination and back home. One little wrong turn after we arrived and I was in a maze, but we still found our way. It took three hours to do everything and I could tell by the doctor's very careful explanation that he knew we would need to really absorb what he was saying. Long story short, the stent is still in place, but there is a leak into the aneurysm and it is growing. Soooooooo, something will need to be done.

Following that, on our way home, we stopped at the motorcycle place to turn over the title and the extra key and pick up the check in payment of it. The repairs were just going to be extensive and to think of having it repaired, then bringing it home to try to sell it or let it just sit in the garage for the next few years wasn't going to happen. Seriously, DH's grief over the loss made me so sad, I wanted to weep. But I didn't. I couldn't. So we drove home and it was sad and he could not sleep all night for thinking about it and also what the doctor had told us. 

On top of that, while we were at the doctor, I received a call that my dear friend might not have much longer to live and her son was calling a limited number of people to please come visit. And so I did visit her on Saturday morning. I stopped by on my way to pick up flowers. She is in much pain and non-responsive to everyone.

I took this picture of the flowers in the car. 

I loved the sunflowers and the cheerful pitcher.

For my DH, the loss of the things he enjoyed were more than the loss of possessions. It means the loss of his dreams, his freedom, the fun he enjoyed as a man of adventures. He had told me before that when he flew, it brought tears to his eyes. And all these things now just aren't possible for him. So I am thinking maybe for his birthday, I might arrange for him to fly with one of his buddies. We will see.

For my friend, she wasn't willing to give up on her dreams either. Having only recently retired, and knowing her cancer was serious, she still had made plans for a trip to Africa! After spending her life in service to her employer, her family and friends, she was going with friends on an exciting adventure which now will not be happening, and more than likely, she will be in hospice.

All of these things are heartbreaking to me and I feel helpless, but I know I can trust my God and know that He is in control of all things. He is there for us, and He will take care of us. I will wait on Him and see what wonderful things He will do.